This afternoon, I went to my friend Peter's cello recital downtown. It started at 3:00 and after driving around to find a parking spot, it was 3:05. So, as soon as I found a spot, I bolted out of my car and started running 2 blocks to the building where the recital was being held. As soon as I got there, it dawned on me that I had left my GPS (named Miriam) turned on and attached to my windshield. I couldn't go back because I already had walked in to the recital late...in between movements of one of his pieces...in front of the whole audience.
After the recital, I decided not to go out to dinner with everyone because I had come down with a sore throat earlier this afternoon and just felt like going home and relaxing. I walked to my car...only to find my front passenger window shattered and Miriam gone. They also apparently went through my center console, but didn't take anything else.
It's sad that Miriam is gone. It's annoying that I have to get yet another window in my car completely replaced. But, I'm trying to keep my mind in perspective.
My car wasn't stolen.
My mom is an insurance agent and knows people at an auto glass company who can get me a new window for only $100.
My stepdad can fix the window himself.
I wasn't hurt.
Miriam is just a thing. She was a nice convenience, but in the grand scheme of things, she's not something that was essential to life.
I just need to remind myself of those things...especially when I look at Bullet's sad window wrapped in plastic wrap...again.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
Kindergartenism #39:
Nora: "Shelby, I love you. You're so cute. You look like a little turtle." (Turtles are Shelby's favorite animal, so I think this was supposed to be a compliment. :P)
Well, this is it. Wedding season. It's looming in the near distance.
Usually, I have 1, maybe 2 weddings each wedding season. The grand total so far this season...5. Not just any 5 weddings...my brother's as well as a few good friends'.
Did I mention that it's my younger brother getting married? Oh, and that I will be the only person in my family (siblings, cousins, etc.) at the wedding that's single?
I'm excited for everyone that's getting married. And I'm even looking forward to the weddings because it'll be fun to see everyone. But it'll be 5 more reminders that I'm single and nowhere near getting married.
I know God has a plan for that area of my life. And I know that it'll be better than anything I can imagine. But some days it's hard to be patient. Especially when people around me don't have to wait anymore.
I'm thankful that I still have a handful of good friends that are single. They remind me that I'm not alone and they help me not think or worry about being single.
Nora: "Shelby, I love you. You're so cute. You look like a little turtle." (Turtles are Shelby's favorite animal, so I think this was supposed to be a compliment. :P)
Well, this is it. Wedding season. It's looming in the near distance.
Usually, I have 1, maybe 2 weddings each wedding season. The grand total so far this season...5. Not just any 5 weddings...my brother's as well as a few good friends'.
Did I mention that it's my younger brother getting married? Oh, and that I will be the only person in my family (siblings, cousins, etc.) at the wedding that's single?
I'm excited for everyone that's getting married. And I'm even looking forward to the weddings because it'll be fun to see everyone. But it'll be 5 more reminders that I'm single and nowhere near getting married.
I know God has a plan for that area of my life. And I know that it'll be better than anything I can imagine. But some days it's hard to be patient. Especially when people around me don't have to wait anymore.
I'm thankful that I still have a handful of good friends that are single. They remind me that I'm not alone and they help me not think or worry about being single.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Kindergartenism #37:
Marie: "Oh man, my backpack is so heavy today!"
Me: "What's making it so heavy?"
Marie: "Well, I have an extra pair of gloves and an extra hat in it today."
Kindergartenism #38:
Evelyn: "Public school means you can't come to school with no clothes on."
Me: "What??"
Evelyn: "Public school means you can't go to school naked."
Me: "You can't go to any school naked!"
On Monday my principal observed me teach a whole group literacy lesson. My intention is that he'll have a good idea of my teaching style and strengths when I interview for the 2nd grade opening at my school. I thought it went pretty well. I was a little nervous when he first came to the classroom, but once I started teaching, I completely forgot he was even there. He told me he wants to type up what he saw and then meet with me soon. I'm anxious to hear what he has to say!
Mike decided not to take the job in Green Bay. He said that his heart just wasn't in it and he was dreading it before he even decided to take it. I'm excited he'll be staying in the area. For now, he's going to keep working at the running store because they've told him there's the opportunity to do management, as well as possibly website design or marketing. He'll be a fun buddy to have around this summer!
Marie: "Oh man, my backpack is so heavy today!"
Me: "What's making it so heavy?"
Marie: "Well, I have an extra pair of gloves and an extra hat in it today."
Kindergartenism #38:
Evelyn: "Public school means you can't come to school with no clothes on."
Me: "What??"
Evelyn: "Public school means you can't go to school naked."
Me: "You can't go to any school naked!"
On Monday my principal observed me teach a whole group literacy lesson. My intention is that he'll have a good idea of my teaching style and strengths when I interview for the 2nd grade opening at my school. I thought it went pretty well. I was a little nervous when he first came to the classroom, but once I started teaching, I completely forgot he was even there. He told me he wants to type up what he saw and then meet with me soon. I'm anxious to hear what he has to say!
Mike decided not to take the job in Green Bay. He said that his heart just wasn't in it and he was dreading it before he even decided to take it. I'm excited he'll be staying in the area. For now, he's going to keep working at the running store because they've told him there's the opportunity to do management, as well as possibly website design or marketing. He'll be a fun buddy to have around this summer!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
I saw Mike tonight at team trivia. Our friendship is so interesting. We're flirty with each other, but I don't expect anything or let it affect my heart. It's almost just naturally how we interact together...I can't really explain it.
Mike had 2 interviews for a job in Green Bay in the last couple of weeks, and was finally given an offer. He's been thinking, praying, and processing this decision for the last week and told me tonight he's 80% sure he's going to take it. It's either take the job (in the field he wants to work in and has a passion for) in a city he doesn't want to live in, or stay in the city he loves and sell running shoes (not a field he has a passion for). Naturally, he's leaning towards following his passion. I don't blame the guy. I did that when I moved from Madison to Milwaukee before I felt ready. It turned out to be the best thing for me...after the hardest year of my life.
I want him to pursue his passion. I want him to have the opportunity to do what he loves doing. But, to be honest...I don't want him to leave. I love having him here. We have so much fun. He's fun to be around. He makes me laugh. He makes me feel important. He's become a really good friend and I will miss him terribly if he leaves. And I honestly mean that just as a friend.
I hate change. Anyone who knows me well knows my whole life has been about change, and I'm ready for it to end. But unfortunately, change is a part of life and I have to accept it. I hate that friends come and go in my life. I hate that people I once felt close to feel distant now. But, I'm having to come to terms with the fact that God has put certain people in my life at certain times for a reason. It may be just for a season or it may be longer...but each person plays a role. And I've noticed that God also has put the right people in my life at the right times. He knows what I need in my life and hasn't failed to provide that. I just need to remember to trust His timing and learn to let go if it's time for a friend to move on...as hard as it may be.
Mike had 2 interviews for a job in Green Bay in the last couple of weeks, and was finally given an offer. He's been thinking, praying, and processing this decision for the last week and told me tonight he's 80% sure he's going to take it. It's either take the job (in the field he wants to work in and has a passion for) in a city he doesn't want to live in, or stay in the city he loves and sell running shoes (not a field he has a passion for). Naturally, he's leaning towards following his passion. I don't blame the guy. I did that when I moved from Madison to Milwaukee before I felt ready. It turned out to be the best thing for me...after the hardest year of my life.
I want him to pursue his passion. I want him to have the opportunity to do what he loves doing. But, to be honest...I don't want him to leave. I love having him here. We have so much fun. He's fun to be around. He makes me laugh. He makes me feel important. He's become a really good friend and I will miss him terribly if he leaves. And I honestly mean that just as a friend.
I hate change. Anyone who knows me well knows my whole life has been about change, and I'm ready for it to end. But unfortunately, change is a part of life and I have to accept it. I hate that friends come and go in my life. I hate that people I once felt close to feel distant now. But, I'm having to come to terms with the fact that God has put certain people in my life at certain times for a reason. It may be just for a season or it may be longer...but each person plays a role. And I've noticed that God also has put the right people in my life at the right times. He knows what I need in my life and hasn't failed to provide that. I just need to remember to trust His timing and learn to let go if it's time for a friend to move on...as hard as it may be.
Kindergartenism #35:
The kiddos were posting signs in the classroom and hallway in hopes to catch a leprechaun. One of the signs read: "God in our room!!!" He was trying to say "Gold in our room!" :)
Kindergartenism #36:
Mrs. Thaker: "What are some things that humans need in order to live?"
Various children: "Food." "Water." "Shelter."
Liam: "Cell phones."
The kiddos were posting signs in the classroom and hallway in hopes to catch a leprechaun. One of the signs read: "God in our room!!!" He was trying to say "Gold in our room!" :)
Kindergartenism #36:
Mrs. Thaker: "What are some things that humans need in order to live?"
Various children: "Food." "Water." "Shelter."
Liam: "Cell phones."
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Kindergartenism #33:
Me: "Today is Dr. Suess' birthday. How old do you think he is?"
Josh: "20!"
I have found some great friends through church/HUB (bible study)/and Heritage here. We've had great laughs and many fun moments. I'm very thankful for them.
If it weren't for some of those friends, I'd feel lost and alone right now. Even with those friends, I still sometimes feel like that. Aside from my small group of "closer" friends here, I feel a little like an outcast, specifically at church/HUB. One girl stopped speaking to me because she had expressed an interest in Mike right before he and I started spending time together. Apparently I've ended up back in high school somehow...
And then sometimes I just feel invisible. I went to Heritage's spring play tonight with some people from my HUB and they hardly talked to me. I just sat there like an extra wheel while they all talked to each other. At one point, we were standing in a circle talking after the play and people moved in front of me and shut me out of the circle so I wasn't a part of it. Unintentional, I'm sure (at least I hope...), but still a little hurtful.
Last weekend, my friends were invited to multiple events by people from church...I wasn't invited to anything.
Am I boring to people? Harsh? Do I say things that make some people not want to try to get to know me more? I don't understand...
I like to be liked by people. I like feeling part of a group. I like being included. When that doesn't happen, it hurts and I don't understand why I'm not. Not only by people I'm not as close to, but even by people I consider close friends. And then I feel like if I didn't initiate any phone calls or conversations with friends, I would never hear from some of them. My close friends or even friends from church all talk to each other, but I'm left feeling out of the loop. Forgotten. Lost in the shuffle.
I think that's a big reason I latched on to spending so much time with Mike. It was someone that found an interest in me and liked spending time with me. And to be honest, I like that he still pays attention to me when we hang out...even just as friends. He's someone who includes me...doesn't forget about me...genuinely enjoys being around me. It makes my heart feel good. Not in a romantic way...just in general.
Maybe it's me. Maybe I'm doing something that sends people around me a signal not to get close to me. If you're reading this and have any insight on this, I'd appreciate it because I'm completely clueless.
I don't want my self-worth to solely be based on what others think of me. But, how others perceive me is still important. I want to know if I'm doing something that keeps people at a distance...good friends and acquaintances alike. I'll let you know if I figure anything out...
Me: "Today is Dr. Suess' birthday. How old do you think he is?"
Josh: "20!"
I have found some great friends through church/HUB (bible study)/and Heritage here. We've had great laughs and many fun moments. I'm very thankful for them.
If it weren't for some of those friends, I'd feel lost and alone right now. Even with those friends, I still sometimes feel like that. Aside from my small group of "closer" friends here, I feel a little like an outcast, specifically at church/HUB. One girl stopped speaking to me because she had expressed an interest in Mike right before he and I started spending time together. Apparently I've ended up back in high school somehow...
And then sometimes I just feel invisible. I went to Heritage's spring play tonight with some people from my HUB and they hardly talked to me. I just sat there like an extra wheel while they all talked to each other. At one point, we were standing in a circle talking after the play and people moved in front of me and shut me out of the circle so I wasn't a part of it. Unintentional, I'm sure (at least I hope...), but still a little hurtful.
Last weekend, my friends were invited to multiple events by people from church...I wasn't invited to anything.
Am I boring to people? Harsh? Do I say things that make some people not want to try to get to know me more? I don't understand...
I like to be liked by people. I like feeling part of a group. I like being included. When that doesn't happen, it hurts and I don't understand why I'm not. Not only by people I'm not as close to, but even by people I consider close friends. And then I feel like if I didn't initiate any phone calls or conversations with friends, I would never hear from some of them. My close friends or even friends from church all talk to each other, but I'm left feeling out of the loop. Forgotten. Lost in the shuffle.
I think that's a big reason I latched on to spending so much time with Mike. It was someone that found an interest in me and liked spending time with me. And to be honest, I like that he still pays attention to me when we hang out...even just as friends. He's someone who includes me...doesn't forget about me...genuinely enjoys being around me. It makes my heart feel good. Not in a romantic way...just in general.
Maybe it's me. Maybe I'm doing something that sends people around me a signal not to get close to me. If you're reading this and have any insight on this, I'd appreciate it because I'm completely clueless.
I don't want my self-worth to solely be based on what others think of me. But, how others perceive me is still important. I want to know if I'm doing something that keeps people at a distance...good friends and acquaintances alike. I'll let you know if I figure anything out...
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